Wanna Believe

Wanna Believe (From 9/3/2009 myspace blog)

The common stimiulation of this world has never really peaked my interest. And now, really not at all.
I wanna believe at something deeper beneath the surface, that behind this flesh face there is a purpose deeper and more connected then my fleshy self to something greater. But what. What could be greater than the chance to live, right?
I seem to remember a world much life this one, though with clean air and inhabitants that appreciated and maintained it.
Truth whispers in my ear reminding me that it is what it is. Existance simply is... everything that it stands for is a product of the human imagination. Every meaning, reason, definition, created in the mind of man and spread to the masses.
It is what one chooses to make of it, if one chooses to make anything of it.. and what is being asked is that people choose to sacrifice their lives and choose to truly make nothing of this life.
Humans understanding and grounded in nothingness in the world I know are lacking, so it seems a natural cause and effect that if more people embodied nothing then everything that is would come to balance.. makes sense, right?
But I don't want to spend my existance as nothing when there are all these cool things to be and roles to play...
We are free to live our lives as we choose, however we can only sustain through choices that benefit ourselves in relationship to the common good.